Skylar's Diary - Day 31

It was an animated day at school, Dear Diary. This morning I put on Raven's sweater, as agreed, and I found that a pleasant start to the day. The very idea that I would wear something from a girl was exciting. And the fact that that piece of clothing belongs to Raven, made it even more fun. I was a little frightened by the potential reactions though, because everyone in the class knows that this sweater is Raven's. The sweater is also a bit girly, because it is so oversized. Too wide sleeves, and so long that it covers my butt. Well, girls like to exaggerate when it comes to their clothes, and I actually like that.

Raven had received one of my sweaters, a pretty ordinary sweater actually, in an ordinary color, with an ordinary length, and an ordinary cap, and an apple on the front. Boys only have ordinary sweaters. Boys never exaggerate, at least not when it comes to their clothes. But even though Raven wore an ordinary sweater, she looked attractive again. Actually, it doesn't matter what she's wearing. She always looks good.

Of course the first conversations at school were about Raven and me. Our friends were very excited, and came to congratulate us. We could both enjoy that. Devon also came to say that he was so happy for me. "You won the first prize," he said. There is something about that, because many boys think Raven is an attractive girl. And for the first time I was able to give Raven a hug in public.

Unfortunately, there were also incidents. The first happened in the hallway. I walked with Raven to the next classroom, and suddenly I got a push. I almost lost my balance. "Out of the way, sissy." It was Brandon, who bypassed us. Raven and I were too stunned to say anything. "Ah, don't bother," said Raven. I found it very annoying.

Afterwards, in Mrs. Liang's class, he did it again. I gave a correct answer to a question from the teacher, to which Brandon said just loud enough, so that everyone could hear it "Well done, sissy."  Several boys started chuckling. Again, I didn't know how to react, but I thought Mrs. Liang's reaction was brilliant. I found her calmness particularly impressive.

"Brandon, do you mind if I interrupt the lesson for a moment, and go into what you just said?"

"Of course not," said Brandon. Interrupting the lesson is a favorite pastime for students.

"Could you explain to us why you think Skylar is a sissy?"

"Well, look at what he's wearing. A girl's sweater."

"And do you have a problem with that?"

"Not in itself, but he does make a fool of himself."

"Just another question. Raven is wearing a boy's sweater, is she making a fool of herself?"

"Erm no, I don't think so."

"So women are allowed to wear men's clothes, but men are not allowed to wear women's clothes. Why is it, Brandon, that many people have such a problem with this? Could it be that the former is considered as an upgrade, and the latter as a downgrade?"

Brandon no longer knew what to say. Of course, he couldn't admit that women are inferior to men. Then Raven raised her hand.

"Yes, Raven," said Mrs. Liang.

"I have a question. For everyone actually, not just for Brandon. I wonder what's wrong with girls and women, so boys and men shouldn't resemble them."

Immediately there was a lot of buzz, and Mrs. Liang let it go. Then she summoned everyone to order.

"I notice that we have found a very interesting subject for a discussion. We're not going to discuss this today, because we all have to think about it first. I will prepare an assignment. And, Brandon, I hope you understand that your comment was very inappropriate."

Other than that, there were no incidents, but I still did not feel comfortable with them. All I did was wearing a girl's sweater. What if they had seen me at the wedding? How would they have responded to that? Again I started to question everything I was doing. Later, Raven saw that I was brooding, and of course she knew why.

"Skylar, I understand that it is very annoying for you. Maybe it wasn't such a good idea of mine after all."

"Raven, I love having your sweater on, I have absolutely no regrets about that. Brandon just ruined it a bit."

"Ah, he's just jealous."

"Why would he?"

"He knows that we are together now, and that's a disappointment for him. He has tried to hang out with me a couple of times, but I really didn't want that."

"Really? Does he have a crush on you?"

"I think so, so I understand that this is bad for him."

"Ha, then I've beaten him." Raven had to laugh, but she also said:

"Hey, I'm not a prey you can hunt, Mr. Competition!" And she poked me with her hip.

"Then he should have put on a dress," I continued. Now Raven gave me a slap, but no hard slap of course. We could laugh with it. After school I brought her back home, and we kissed. It has become a routine, a wonderful routine.

When I got home, I took off my long pants and put on a black legging, like Raven did today. In that outfit I just felt better. A bit more feminine. More feminine is better. I ate with my mother.

"Mom, I need to tell you something." I couldn't say this without smiling.

"Judging by your face, it's good news." My smile grew wider.

"Raven and I are together." Now mother brightened up completely.

"Oh, how nice for you. I think Raven is a very sweet girl. Is it her sweater you're wearing?"

"Yes, I wore it all day at school."

"How sweet. And I suppose you've had a lot of reactions?"

"Yes, especially positive."

"Negative too, then?"

"Yes, there is one guy in my class who is very annoying. He always makes shitty remarks when I do something that's just a little girly. Guys like him make me feel insecure."

"I understand that, Skylar. There are people in the world who aren't very nice. The best thing you can do is ignore them. Pay attention to the good things you see, and they will grow. Ignore the bad things, and eventually they will disappear."

I thought that was a good piece of advice from Mom.

In my room I went over the list again, because it was quite a while ago.

Number 2. Definitely by now. At the wedding party I felt beautiful, and I enjoyed that.

Number 3. I am still in doubt. I can't think of any good examples yet.

Number 6. Here I doubt too. Not that I do badly at school, but there is still room for improvement.

Number 8. Has actually always been true for me.

Number 9. I'm not a real talker, and I don't spend hours chatting online. Hm, so don't indicate yet.

Number 13. Should I indicate. Most of the boys are stronger than me.

Number 18. Well, I did it today.

Number 19. I need to think about it. Raven, that's easy, my apple sweater, a black legging, and I think red sports shoes. Mrs. Liang, a suit that resembles what I wore yesterday, but a bit more modest: a longer skirt, and with the shirt all the way up, no stockings, but heels. Devon, boring boys' clothes, long pants, a fortnite t-shirt, sneakers. Mother, a white silk blouse with butterfly sleeves, and a brown leather A-line skirt just over the knee, but at home she wasn’t wearing shoes. Oh, come on, number 19 applies to me.

Conclusion: I have many girl properties. A lot.

Skylar's Diary - Day 32