Skylar's Diary - Day 43

Shall I keep you in suspense, Dear Diary, or not? Shall I tell you now whether it worked out well or not? And shall I tell you already how I am feeling now, or not? Did I follow Meagan's advice, or not?

I'll start by saying that I was very nervous this morning. I could hardly eat a bite, and mother saw that I was tense.

"I'm sure it's all going to be fine today." I still wonder if she was really sure of that. Did she know what was going to happen?

However, there was no question of backtracking. That had become impossible, because everyone knew about it. It would have been a cowardly act.

I went to my room and put on my coming-out outfit, which I had bought the day before yesterday with Raven and Summer. Today I show it to you too, Dear Diary. You might remember the shoes, I wore them during my first girl time with Raven.

I also decided to wear a little makeup. I call it sub-threshold makeup. That means it's too little for boys to notice, but just enough for girls to see it. Girls do have better observation skills, you know. I had painted my nails in a brown-red color.

We had agreed that Raven would come to pick me up, even if she had to make a big detour. But today she wanted to do that for me. Then I would be more at ease. The nice thing was that she had also put on a pleated skirt and tights. Just to support me.

The first event was actually funny. Raven and I had only just left, and we met Mrs. Fuentes.

"Good morning, girls. On your way to school?" she asked.

"We are, but Skylar is a boy," Raven said.

"Haha, you naughty girl, you don't fool me. Skylar has always been a girl!"

Would Mrs. Fuentes be so confused now?

We quietly continued towards school, and Raven was her enthusiastic self again. I really appreciate that about her, because that made me more relaxed.

Suddenly I got a message. It came from Meagan.

"Enjoy!"

"Whose is it?" Raven asked.

"From Meagan" I said.

And something came in again, this time from Riley.

"I think of you. I'm proud of you."

I let Raven read it.

"How sweet of her," said Raven.

"Yes, I think so too."

Then a message from Summer came in: "You rock, girl!!!"

I stopped. The messages kept coming in, especially from classmates.

"You're brave!" It was Devon's.

"I'm with you!" "Go go girl!" "Good luck!" "You're the best" "You're amazing" and so on.

Messages from people I knew, but also from unknown numbers.

Raven stood next to me. She laughed. I could tell from her face that she knew about this.

"Are you behind this?"

"Not just me. Summer and Devon too, we did some brainstorming."

"I'm not sure what to say. I think this is incredibly sweet of you. And of all those people."

"Come on, let's move on," said Raven.

My nervousness wasn't completely gone yet, but my fear certainly was. As we walked a few more messages came in, all encouragements.

The best was yet to come.

We arrived at school, and a lot of girls and boys from my class were waiting for us. Apparently the girls had agreed to all wear something similar: a pleated skirt with tights.

"Good morning, Skylar" "Hi Skylar, how are you doing today?" "You look great, Skylar" It all sounded mixed up. I still didn't know what to say, but I do remember walking around with a broad smile.

There were even a few guys with a 'special' outfit. Perhaps the most striking one was Devon, who had put on a pleated skirt above his trousers. We gave each other a hug. Summer was standing next to him. "He's not ready for tights yet," she said. "Whatever, Summer, I appreciate his gesture."

Liam had painted his nails. Noah was wearing a very girly bracelet. Ethan had a line under his eyes (drawn by Summer). Aiden was wearing a pink pullover with a unicorn from his sister. Asher was wearing a flower in his hair.

I loved it. This was also an idea of Raven, Summer and Devon. Can one have better friends than them?

So, Dear Diary, I don't have to keep you in suspense any longer. It all went well. What am I saying, it was a fantastic day. And I'm still blissful. It was impossible for me not to follow Meagan's advice.

It must have been a strange parade on our way to class. For a moment I thought of the other boys in the class, but I quickly pushed those thoughts aside. Focus on the positive, ignore the negative. I shouldn't make this a victory over them either. It was and is a victory over myself. Some of the boys might have given a strange look, maybe disapproving, but I knew I wasn't alone.

The teachers were aware of my coming-out, and they could appreciate the response of my classmates. They didn't pay much attention to it though, and that was fine by me. I want my new way of life to be something normal as soon as possible.

And as the day evolved, the situation became more normal. There was talk about other things. During the breaks the four of us mainly hung out together: Raven, Summer, Devon and me. Even after school we went for a drink together, to celebrate my special day. I brought Raven to her house, and hopped home. Of course I told my mother everything in all detail. She was happy, and so was and am I.

Do you know what I think now, Dear Diary? I think it's a pity that the day is over. Also this day can be included in the list of best days of my life. A message just came in:

"good night dreamgirl"

"good night silly love of my life"

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